On this past Sunday, it was raining and sometimes rain can bring on the blues. So… I’m just gonna blame this tearful “chemo tears” vlog post on the rain.
I was thinking about how much I don’t like the way I feel now and the thought of going through this chemo stuff over and over, got the best of me… For a little while.
My mouth doesn’t feel right. Food is almost dreadful to think about. You know how you scorch your tongue? My entire tongue feels like it’s been scorched! The freakin diarrhea is just killin me, even though I’m sure it’s a huge part of my weight loss, I’m so tired of running to the bathroom and everything is “liquid”. My energy is low. And so, yesterday I just broke down and cried.
I did the video because I want to document various stages of what I went through at the end of this journey. I want to remember the pain as well as the victories. At first, I started not to share this video but, then I decided to do it anyway because I don’t want to hide who I am with you guys. I want to be transparent so that if anything I say can help someone with some area of their live, I will.
Sometimes we share a ‘weak moment’ and it strengthens someone else. Weird but true.
Just so you know, TODAY… MONDAY… I FEEL MUCH BETTER!
Today, I haven’t had to ‘run’ to the bathroom but, once since waking up and it’s almost 10am as I type this! This is a victory!
Also, today my mouth feels a little bit better. I think the apple sauce and cool foods worked. 🙂
So, hopefully I didn’t cause you to cry watching this video. I’m sorry if you shed tears. I don’t plan on doing any other tearful videos. Maybe when I get really happy and I cry because of something that has brought me overwhelming joy! But, no more sad ones.
My song of the day is an oldie but, to me, always a goodie… Millie Vanilli, “Blame It On The Rain”. It’s what popped into my head yesterday.
Thank you for being a subscriber! I don’t share all of the videos publicly on YouTube. Some videos, like this one, is shared with YOU first. Some videos will ONLY BE SHARE WITH MY SUBSCRIBERS.
I am hoping to do lots of cool things… Share things that you will appreciate that benefit your life.