Tracy Allen Crying – Blame It On The Rain

On this past Sunday, it was raining and sometimes rain can bring on the blues. So… I’m just gonna blame this tearful “chemo tears” vlog post on the rain.

I was thinking about how much I don’t like the way I feel now and the thought of going through this chemo stuff over and over, got the best of me… For a little while.

My mouth doesn’t feel right. Food is almost dreadful to think about. You know how you scorch your tongue? My entire tongue feels like it’s been scorched! The freakin diarrhea is just killin me, even though I’m sure it’s a huge part of my weight loss, I’m so tired of running to the bathroom and everything is “liquid”. My energy is low. And so, yesterday I just broke down and cried.

I did the video because I want to document various stages of what I went through at the end of this journey. I want to remember the pain as well as the victories. At first, I started not to share this video but, then I decided to do it anyway because I don’t want to hide who I am with you guys. I want to be transparent so that if anything I say can help someone with some area of their live, I will.

Sometimes we share a ‘weak moment’ and it strengthens someone else. Weird but true.


Today, I haven’t had to ‘run’ to the bathroom but, once since waking up and it’s almost 10am as I type this! This is a victory!

Also, today my mouth feels a little bit better. I think the apple sauce and cool foods worked. πŸ™‚

So, hopefully I didn’t cause you to cry watching this video. I’m sorry if you shed tears. I don’t plan on doing any other tearful videos. Maybe when I get really happy and I cry because of something that has brought me overwhelming joy! But, no more sad ones.

My song of the day is an oldie but, to me, always a goodie… Millie Vanilli, “Blame It On The Rain”. It’s what popped into my head yesterday.

Thank you for being a subscriber! I don’t share all of the videos publicly on YouTube. Some videos, like this one, is shared with YOU first. Some videos will ONLY BE SHARE WITH MY SUBSCRIBERS.

I am hoping to do lots of cool things… Share things that you will appreciate that benefit your life.

11 thoughts on “Tracy Allen Crying – Blame It On The Rain

  1. You are a beacon of light in a dark place for many. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with honesty Tracy. Stay strong, you are an amazing woman!

  2. I’m still praying for you Tracy. Hang in there, I’m here for you T. Be well and stay strong. God’s still in control and He’s got you covered Tracy.

  3. Hi Tracey
    Glad that you have gotten over your hurdle of depression and a bad stomach. Try ginger tea, I am on chemo myself and it helps at lot! It will soothe your stomach.

    1. Thank you Sylena. I pray you are doing well. When are you going to be done with chemo?

    1. Feeling better, thank you Veronica. Yep… One second… One minute… One Hour… One day at a time. Today is definitely better than Sunday.

  4. You are welcome for the pink wristbands. Enjoy them. I keep you n thought and prayer. Stay strong. Cry if u must — get it out. HUGS!!

  5. This just makes me want to breakdown and cry I know we don’t see each other alot but I love you deeply and I don’t want anything to happen to you i will pray God heals you I love you Cousin Tracy 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

    1. Awww lil cuz… I’m going to be just fine. The cancer is shrinking and I’m sure I’ll be even better than I was before. Thank you! I love you too. I’ll get better and visit you next year! β™₯

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