Although everyone thinks I’ve got it together and I’m breezing through my chemo, at times, I’m not. Right now, I’m fighting depression during chemo. It’s important to recognize when you feel like you’re slipping away… Even a little bit (in my opinion) and to Get Help.
I’ve been trying really hard to keep my spirits up, as everyone always says you have to. I do things to try to make myself feel better… Keeping up my appearance, finding things to smile and laugh about, just being as strong and positive as I can. Doing my best not to worry about anything.
The truth is, I do worry sometimes. And I believe 100% that I’m going to get through this but it’s still taking a toll on me. Understanding that the chemo has gotten rid of most of the cancer already is amazing but having to endure the rest of his chemo is a nightmare.
You have to stay in tune with your body. You have to know when you’re just not feeling right. I’m always asked by the medical staff if I feel like I’m going to harm myself or anyone else. Of course the answer is always, “No”. But there are times I feel worthless, disconnected, loss, and/or disconnected.
There are times that it’s difficult for me to imagine the day that comes that I can enjoy my food again. It really sucks to wake up and be hungry throughout the day and can’t stand the idea of eating or drinking anything that you have.
So when you get to a point that you are struggling to keep yourself up, it’s time to seek help. It’s not gonna hurt. Whether you’re fighting depression during chemo or any other reason you may be dealing with it, make sure you don’t try to do it alone.
Thank you to all of you that continue to walk with me during these times. You really are what keeps me going… The Creator has sent you all my way. I think HIM for YOU.
PLEASE ALSO PRAY FOR:
While you pray for me, PLEASE keep my cousin Lisa in prayer too. She’s been battling Leukemia for a long time and she’s in the hospital fighting a number of things right now back in my home town of Pittsburgh, PA.
We took this photo in 2015 at the repast of one of cousins that passed away far too soon.
Out of sight is NOT out of mind. I may not see my family members much but, I love them all and so I am hoping my cousin will be OK soon. Thank you all.
OK my friends and family, I’m listing some links below that I spoke about in the video that may help you with your journey as a cancer patient or entrepreneur.
Join this Facebook Event about a way to fund your business using crowd funding with My Community Fund. If you decide you’d like to be a part of this community, use my ID Link: firstname.lastname@example.org
I know it’s crazy but, I forgot about SUSAN G. KOMAN. You can get so bogged down with the idea of having cancer that you forget about obvious resources. Don’t forget to see what you may need via this organization. I’ve donated to it many times in my life NEVER thinking I’d need it.
This organization, MAMA’S KITCHEN, is only here in San Diego, I believe but, they will bring you meals that you just have to heat. I haven’t started with them yet but, it may come in handy soon. It’s a free service for cancer and AIDS patients.